Quiet Mind

I just had to share this even though this was going on last night. I was too tired to type it up last night though!

Zumba class was great last night! What a good work out! Back home to get the kids from my friend's house, get them cleaned up for bed, and try to eat before it gets too late (oh well so much for eating!). Last night my boys were playing with a ball- it was sooo cute! I just let them play even though it was getting late. They had so much fun!!! Then I had to cut it off though because it was definitely getting late. The oldest got into bed with his book, while my youngest was with me in the rocking chair. As I sat in the rocking chair waiting for my little one to drift off to a good night's sleep, I tried to QUIET MY MIND! Ever tried it?

Cheers! To: Working Mommies/Wives

It's the middle of the week and even though the things on my list are no where near DONE, I am still feeling good and just thankful for family, health, and life!


This life is temporary and, well, it is hard to focus on enjoying it when we have so many details of TASKS to complete. Then again, do they ever get COMPLETELY done? I feel that the laundry is NEVER COMPLETELY done! Why? Because it keeps coming back after it's cleaned, folded, and put away! Sometimes I want to just give up, throw my hands in the air, and just let it pile up: it keeps coming back anyway right?

Today is STRUGGLE-FREE Day!

Good morning!

I made it through last night and it is such a blessing to be able to share Zumba with people
that truly want to live healthy and happy! I was so nervous about new choreography for last night's class.

This Morning-

Put oldest on the bus.

Sadly waved good-bye to him (as I am still adjusting to him now being in Kindergarten)

Fed the little one.

Dozed off for a little bit because my eyes were very HEAVY!

Responded to e-mails regarding Zumba subs needed.

Can't remember what in the world I am supposed to be doing right now!

Still have the new Zumba choreography that I'm doing tonight in my head, and everything

else is cloudy!

Geeeeze: how am I going to make sure the kids are ready before I get to class tonight?

Okay breathe.

Sent e-mail about Cougar Challenge for oldest son's school. CHECK!

Created playlist for new choreography for Zumba class tonight.

Can you tell how ALL OVER THE PLACE I am?

Quiet the mind, breathe, pray....why stress? It's a beautiful day....then again there is so much to be done. It's all GOOD!

What gets done gets done. Not everything will, but oh well!

Try and sit the little one on the potty (I remember now)!

Off we go- the venture of a new week!

I keep holding in my breath as I type this LOL!

LOL SMILEY FACE!

Peace, Love, Zuuumba!

STOP!

Work on new choreography! Sweep this stinkin' floor! Wash oldest son's school uniforms for the week! Organize oldest son's school work and tasks! Rest! Eat! Get all family appointments, events, etc. on calendar! Straighten kitchen desk! Pick up all dirty clothes hanging around every where! Don't forget to breathe! Find paperwork for bills. Pay bills! Get groceries for the week! It goes on and on and it don't STOP!

STOP! Wait a minute. Slow down. I can't keep up. How do I fit all this into my head? My brain can only take so much! Is it time to scream? Heck YEAAHHHHHHHHhhhh! I'm well overdue for a good scream! Anybody with me?

I have yet to practice new choreography for Zumba fitness classes that start up again Monday evening. Not to mention- there are new Instructors coming to audition to sub and also possibly teach permanently Zumba Fitness classes! Ayyyyyy! What's a woman to do? Stop, breathe, focus! Stop, breathe, focus! In my mind I just want to sit down, not think about anything, put my feet up, and just BREATHE deep breaths! Can I do that? Of course not because time is passing by and I only have so much of it before the new work/school week starts up!

Hubby will be going out of town for business this coming week. I'm freakin' out because I'll be playing single Mom, of course, until he returns. SCREAM! Just scream girl! Yeahhhhh my mind is telling me this. I just want to watch a good movie. I just want to chill, relax. Yet I don't feel I have the time to do this with everything going on! Yet I created this monster life that is filled with A LOT OF BUSY STUFF! WTH? What the___? What was I thinking?

It's Sat. night and I still don't have new choreography together. I feel bad because my 5 yr. old is sitting on the couch playing on his Nintendo DS (have I stooped so low as a Mom that I have him turning to his DS for fun? Oh crap! This is NOT GOOD, not good at all!). The cry for "Help!" flashes in front of me.

This is my life. Am I doing too much? My hubby always seems to think so. Yet if I gave up anything I feel like I'd be giving up a part of me! Who the heck wants to give up a piece of self? I know I don't want to. Why should I? I deserve to live my passion. Oh wait- did I even state my passion? DANCE (I'm dancing right now as I type this- I can't help it!)! Movement is therapy for me- whether it's dance, tai chi, yoga, kickboxing, anything that involves me moving my body: I am SO THERE!

So I can't just STOP! I have to keep going. It is a part of who I am as a person. Yet there is a part of me that feels I have to give it all up in order to maintain some sanity in my life. Would I be truly happy if I did give up those things I am passionate about? Having a family complicates things. Yet I wouldn't trade it for the world. It's a matter of finding the balance that I need in order to make it through as a mother, wife, and teacher. So why this going back and forth with my feelings? I am so lost when it comes to this. I am on one end of the pendulum, then I suddenly swing loosely to the other end! DANG IT! STOP PLEASE! I'm getting a headache!

Sometimes I pretend I am this woman that can do it ALL! No way! Although there are many times we juggle the cumbersome tasks of being a woman with many hats to wear! So part of me wants to stop ALL that I am doing. And part of me just wants to try and keep going, find my way through the madness of the chaos! Which part do you think outweighs the other part?

WINK! WINK!

If I could stop time, I sure would. Just to get some things done that have been on my TO-DO list for too freakin' long! Do you understand? Can you relate? I sure hope so because I don't want to feel alone in this.

On to my choreography! Let me stop procrastinating and start being proactive with this chaotic life I chose!

Until next time, Peace, Love, and Zumba!

Just Getting Started...

"Are you ready to Zumba?" This statement comes from Alberto "Beto" Perez, the creator of Zumba® Fitness. If you'd like to know more about Zumba, please go to http://www.zumba.com.

I am a certified Zumba® Fitness instructor. Of course I am sure you already knew that by looking at the title! :) I have four Zumba® Fitness certifications (Basic 1, Basic 2, Gold, and new this year Zumbatomic!). And I LOVE it! I love what I do and I'm thankful for the opportunity to be able to share this amazing experience with those looking to have a good time while maintaining happy healthy hearts all at the same time!

So what is this blog about? First and foremost I LOVE to journal! And I thought to myself, "I have got to write about my experiences as I move through this new journey of my life that now involves Zumba!" I struggle a lot in trying to find that balance with teaching classes, being a Wife, a Mom, and just a woman in general! Lots of times I lose my self when trying to find that balance. I believe that lots of women can certainly connect with the struggles as we put on the many hats of being a woman with a variety of roles and responsibilities.

Do you feel me? If you do, then feel free to get out your popcorn, your glasses, and your favorite seat as you journey with me through these amazing life experiences!

Are you ready? Let's get started! Peace, Love and Zumba (PLZ)!